Just few days ago, I saw a rainbow in the window and it’s really awesome. This time it’s sort of perfect as it got a bow from end to end. Oh my, it’s so breathtaking and it’s such a pity that it only lasted for a couple of minutes since sunset’s already coming. Well, the rainbow’s very much my life. It got a wide variety of color and not all are interesting but if you piece them together, you got a wonderful array of colors. I find myself pondering on my life on that occasion.
How’s my life? with God most especially? Am I really doing His will? Time and time again, I’ve always said, I’m going to make this and that for God but I never really do. It sucks. Now, I feel like stuck on a glue trying to lift off but with no avail. I made certain goals to attain sanctity in life but with my current life nowadays, I find myself deviating from that. It’s not funny nor something to be taken for granted. I must retrace back my life before it’s too late.
The weather isn’t good here and I got caught with cold. I don’t feel any better but perhaps, this is the time for me to recollect about my life. Indeed, I’ve been busy pleasing anybody save God - my greatest Benefactor. I didn’t know how far I’ve been through that until my body got this sickness. Fortunately, my body temperature is pretty normal.
As I move on, I still think of the rainbow. It happens only once in a while but it never fails to show up. Emitting brighter rays, the rainbow can still be a mirror of my life. Like I said above, it can be of any color but I’m always grateful that God bestows happiness after any ill effect of my life.
Oh, Lord my God, heal me from my infirmity. But grant also that my recovery would be a new life for me that I may serve Thee even more faithfully! Oh my Blessed Mother, have compassion upon thy daughter! Never let me sink into any sin and grant me the grace of patience that I may carry my sickness with a joyful heart!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
First Year
My blog is a year old now and looking back, it’s still amazing how I came to create this. Well, my first post here is about a Hollywood actor’s forum page I made somewhere. Now, it’s so silly how I fool myself about it. I know it’s not edifying and finally I’ve the courage to say goodbye to that. Rather, let me invite you in this newly created traditional Catholic forum: http://sancte-vivere-forum.heavenforum.com/index.htm
Many things had happened to my life this month and I wish to narrate it here but I’m still busy as usual. I hope to be back here soon when I got more time. Nevertheless, here’s one major incident.
This month of the Holy Eucharist, I’m glad to expound that I was able to receive my God twice! Yes, Mom’s finally back in hearing the Traditional Latin Mass and hopefully it’d continue forever. "We all need to be close to Him - the Source of all graces and blessings," so said one SSPX priest upon learning of Mom’s return in receiving the Sacraments frequently. True enough, there’s no cross that heavy with Him, no happiness that blissful without Him Who redeemed us, and lastly no temptation that enticing with Him Who was conceived by a Virgin.
I’d finally reiterate to everyone to confide their woes and joys to the Immaculate Lady. She’s always waiting for us to come near her and ever much ready to assist us with her sublime prerogatives. If only we know how to ask God abundant graces, then we’d always unite our will to His Daughter’s for she’s been full of grace ever since!
Oh my Blessed Virgin, to thee do I’ve recourse. Help me and guide me as I tread this world that I may always be an instrument of God and that my joy would be full! Amen.
Many things had happened to my life this month and I wish to narrate it here but I’m still busy as usual. I hope to be back here soon when I got more time. Nevertheless, here’s one major incident.
This month of the Holy Eucharist, I’m glad to expound that I was able to receive my God twice! Yes, Mom’s finally back in hearing the Traditional Latin Mass and hopefully it’d continue forever. "We all need to be close to Him - the Source of all graces and blessings," so said one SSPX priest upon learning of Mom’s return in receiving the Sacraments frequently. True enough, there’s no cross that heavy with Him, no happiness that blissful without Him Who redeemed us, and lastly no temptation that enticing with Him Who was conceived by a Virgin.
I’d finally reiterate to everyone to confide their woes and joys to the Immaculate Lady. She’s always waiting for us to come near her and ever much ready to assist us with her sublime prerogatives. If only we know how to ask God abundant graces, then we’d always unite our will to His Daughter’s for she’s been full of grace ever since!
Oh my Blessed Virgin, to thee do I’ve recourse. Help me and guide me as I tread this world that I may always be an instrument of God and that my joy would be full! Amen.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
My Roller Coaster Life
Mom’s not feeling well and she’s on and off with her doctors (nephro, pulmo, cardio, derma). She’s having complicated side effects due to many drugs that her skin is now affected. She always complains of headache, hardness of breathing, itchiness, and many other different muscle pains. Doctors are sort of giving up for her bodily movements say otherwise. I think it’s safe to say it’s the devil only.
It’s honestly breaking my heart to see her that way. She travels 5 hours just to go to Davao for her doctors and then another 5 hours to return home. Her body definitely needs rest but unfortunately, she’s not content with the South Cotabato doctors. I try my best in consoling her and I limit her negative emotional feelings as much as I can. One of her greatest anxieties, though, is her continuous argument with Dad.
I’ve been pleading to God and the Blessed Virgin to heal her but only when she’s fully converted to Catholic Tradition. I thought of changing my intention but then again, I know it is the right intention. I’ve had enough of battling with the loneliness that Mom creates and I’m really getting exhausted. Hope I’d be able to overcome this and help my siblings think the right way. That it is trying times once again but the need to hold on. This is still God’s will.
Oh Blessed Virgin, my Mother, comfort Mom and please let her realize her mistake. May it never be too late for repentance and please do not make her an obstinate sinner. Oh Most Pure Lady, keep me spotless from this world despite every uphill of my miseries here on earth! Amen.
It’s honestly breaking my heart to see her that way. She travels 5 hours just to go to Davao for her doctors and then another 5 hours to return home. Her body definitely needs rest but unfortunately, she’s not content with the South Cotabato doctors. I try my best in consoling her and I limit her negative emotional feelings as much as I can. One of her greatest anxieties, though, is her continuous argument with Dad.
I’ve been pleading to God and the Blessed Virgin to heal her but only when she’s fully converted to Catholic Tradition. I thought of changing my intention but then again, I know it is the right intention. I’ve had enough of battling with the loneliness that Mom creates and I’m really getting exhausted. Hope I’d be able to overcome this and help my siblings think the right way. That it is trying times once again but the need to hold on. This is still God’s will.
Oh Blessed Virgin, my Mother, comfort Mom and please let her realize her mistake. May it never be too late for repentance and please do not make her an obstinate sinner. Oh Most Pure Lady, keep me spotless from this world despite every uphill of my miseries here on earth! Amen.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Getting To Appreciate Things
Recently, my family switched from reading PDI newspaper to Philippine Star newspaper. Actually, I couldn’t just imagine on what good I would ever get to read from there. It’s so dull plus a bit clichéd. And unlike the PDI, I hardly know their writers and editors. I was still skeptical about it when Mom brought another one last week.
So, I skimped through the papers and found their usual unattractive style. I thought of reading some articles with interesting titles until I glimpsed the caption: “What would Jesus do?”. At first sight, one thing that crossed my mind is that the author is Protestant as the illustration on his article portrayed a laughing Christ with an apple and a book under it on His hand. Well, the picture had an impression of a Protestant look and so I decided to read it last. His views might probably be anti- Catholic.
I finally came there and as I read on the few paragraphs, I realized I was mistaken. He is a Catholic. Comforted to know that, I read it with great enthusiasm. He was talking about patience and even more patience. That on every negative thing he happened to face, he’d ask himself: What would Jesus do in my position?
It was a good thing that there’s still a Catholic who still think the right thinking. And that he’s not ashamed to write about it publicly in an almost godless newspaper.
Anyway, Lent is coming already and we need to practice mortification and patience. Time to accept more humiliation with discretion. It’s really a good exercise for each and everyone to ponder this: If our Lord Jesus Christ Whose spotless was beaten and insulted with so much hatred and yet patiently accepted it, how much more should I - a poor wretched sinner - not accept it with a resigned heart? God knows everything and sees that it’s better for us to have this or that kind of trials.
Last Sunday’s epistle ended with: My grace is sufficient for thee: for power is perfected in weakness. Gladly, therefore, will I glory in mine infirmities, that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
Indeed, He would never leave us provided that we ask His guidance through the loving intercession of our Blessed Virgin Mary.
So, I skimped through the papers and found their usual unattractive style. I thought of reading some articles with interesting titles until I glimpsed the caption: “What would Jesus do?”. At first sight, one thing that crossed my mind is that the author is Protestant as the illustration on his article portrayed a laughing Christ with an apple and a book under it on His hand. Well, the picture had an impression of a Protestant look and so I decided to read it last. His views might probably be anti- Catholic.
I finally came there and as I read on the few paragraphs, I realized I was mistaken. He is a Catholic. Comforted to know that, I read it with great enthusiasm. He was talking about patience and even more patience. That on every negative thing he happened to face, he’d ask himself: What would Jesus do in my position?
It was a good thing that there’s still a Catholic who still think the right thinking. And that he’s not ashamed to write about it publicly in an almost godless newspaper.
Anyway, Lent is coming already and we need to practice mortification and patience. Time to accept more humiliation with discretion. It’s really a good exercise for each and everyone to ponder this: If our Lord Jesus Christ Whose spotless was beaten and insulted with so much hatred and yet patiently accepted it, how much more should I - a poor wretched sinner - not accept it with a resigned heart? God knows everything and sees that it’s better for us to have this or that kind of trials.
Last Sunday’s epistle ended with: My grace is sufficient for thee: for power is perfected in weakness. Gladly, therefore, will I glory in mine infirmities, that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
Indeed, He would never leave us provided that we ask His guidance through the loving intercession of our Blessed Virgin Mary.
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